Thursday, July 28, 2011

The Saddest of News

Today my mom called me with some terrible news...

A guy I knew in high school, Pete Votapka, drowned today in the Kootenai River.  He was 2 years older than I was but I got to know him through all of the pep band events and trips.  He was so nice and sweet, never complained, and would do anything for anyone.  That is exactly what he did today.  While him and some of his friends were walking around the Kootenai River, one slipped and Pete jumped in to save 'em.  The friend made it...but Pete did not.  He was swept down the current and it was confirmed later by the Sherrif's Office.  I cried when my mom told me on the phone.  What a horrible tragedy.  R.I.P. Pete.  You will be missed and you are a true hero.  Bless the family going through this tragedy.  

The scary thing is....I just saw him exactly a week ago at the Red Dog.... I am still in shock... and deeply saddened.  

Monday, July 25, 2011

A New Outlook

Last Friday night, Katelinn, Desmond and I went out to my aunt and uncle's cabin on Middle Thompson Lake to stay the night and hang out.

In the midst of our hangout we thought about driving to Kalispel to get Taco Bell and in the meantime we were channel surfing.  We came across a program called ''movie.''  I laughed and made a couple of wise cracks at the title.  But after watching a segment, I became hooked.  I was so drawn to the story.

It was a lifetime movie about a syphilis outbreak throughout high school students in a community.  It was honestly unbelievable.  The students (mostly 14) just thought of sex as ''something to do'' or ''a boost in popularity'' and ''everybody does it.''  Some students had over 20 sex partners. WTF!!  Whenever a student was tested for syphilis, they wouldn't get treated or just keep doing the same thing over and over again.  My jaw dropped several times during the movie.

14.....14....That is my little sisters age.   I didn't even know what a lot of this stuff was when I was that age.  The parents in the movie were blaming it on TV, music, magazines, and all  other media sources.  That's a part of it but another part could be stemmed from something in the family life, an internal struggle, or low self esteem.  It's sad really...

This is when I made up my mind to be the best mentor and role model for my sister.  After getting sick, my self-esteem and self-image plummeted.  All I cared about was how I looked or if my dress was hip and what people thought of me.  After watching this movie, I realized there is so much more to life than sex appeal... I kind of forgot about that until this movie became a reminder in what I strive for.  I need to better convey it to my sister.  She is going to be a Freshman in high school this year and this movie really freaked me out.  I realized that now is the time to be there for my sister, to teach her that appearance and being popular isn't going to matter after high school.

One part in particular made me furious.  One guy, about 16, was one of the "big spreaders " of the virus and was too "cool" to take responsibility.  His "prey" ended up being a naive, sweet 14 year old girl and ultimately guilt tripped her into things she wasn't comfortable with.  There are people like this in the world and it made me sick.  My sister was an awful lot like the girl in the movie, so it is now my job to prepare her for these kind of dudes.

A lot of the movie was most likely exaggerated but the underlying thing happens all the time in high school:  Doing ridiculous things just to be notice and also to climb the status ladder of popularity and likability.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Good Times

Today, my best friend from high school and one of my great friends from China are here at the same time.  The first time in 4 years!  I consider it a special privilege to get to hang with them both at the same time.  I will treasure this time together because of several things:  who knows if I will ever get to see my friend from China again, I have no idea when I will see my best friend again after she goes back to college and might possibly stay there, and most of all, when we will be able to be together at the same time.  Bittersweet really.  I'm very excited to make new memories with them and also re-visit the ones already made.

To wrap it up, I am so happy with the life I have been granted.  The chance to hang out with old-time friends is a great gift and I can't wait to treasure the friends I have acquired in college. I missed out on a lot and I can't wait to gain it all back!! =)


Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Severus Snape

AKA- THE coolest character ever created

In case someone didn't get the message.  I freaking love the character of Snape!!!
I cry every time in HP 7 part 2.  Think I'm lame?  Shut up.  Hate Snape? I will beat your ass!

What I love most about his character is the mystery and seriousness.  Plus, Alan Rickman is pretty much the bomb.  Even the costume is awesome.  He plays a bad guy so well he can't possibly be a good guy right? But there is a little part of you that hopes he's the good guy in the end because that's how it should be.  And what a turnout!! Favorite part in the entire series!

Any of that make sense at all??

Bottom line: Snape is my hero =)

Relief = Light at the End of the Tunnel

Relief.
The "Aaaaaaaaaaah" sensation
Lots of things produce this feeling.

A huge assignment finished
Conflict resolution with significant other
A big doo-doo
The sun on your face
A glass of ice water
Vics vapor rub
Sneezing
Farting

You get the idea...the list is endless

I recently just felt this feeling after finally talking with someone about what I was coping with.  I have been struggling with depression ever since I became very sick with mono.  I felt resentment, anger, jealousy and sadness.  Like everything I had worked for was suddenly taken away from me.  After talking with this lady, it was finally nice to experience the "aaaaah" feeling and see light at the end of the tunnel.  Finally....after what seems like forever.  This is a great step and I'm glad I took it.    I feel like I'm almost to the end.

Plus, the lady had a dog in her office that was named Chewbacca and looked like an Ewok....What could be better!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

The Beginning Activity

Well....Here we are....

I've decided to try my hand at this blog ordeal.
It was suggested to me by someone I treasure dearly that I find a new activity that interested me.
My first go 'round probably ain't so good...but whatevs.
I've been through a rather trying ordeal...I'm hoping this shall create a spark.
We shall see...
The beginning!

*Place Star Wars Theme Here*